911 and help is on the way

Being home all day long it's not the best part of my life, right now, but I found out that I can use all this time in my favor and transform it from "borring three months home" in "those three months when I stayed home b/c of my broken wrist but I had a great time and I did something with it"..so, with this in mind, I decided yesterday to go to Ladies Bible Study at my sister's church.Nice...:)I'll post a picture I really like..(sory for the quality, I'm still trying to figure out how to use it to its best power).So, the decision turned out to be perfect, we had a great time, and even if i was the youngest of them all, I felt blessed:you guys of my age, really have what to learn from the ones who saw more then us how's life...The most, I liked, the ideea with 911..Let me explain:)..So, you have an emergency you call 911 and as soon as you call they know who you are and where to come...the same thing is with Jesus:sometimes we call Him, but we really don't know what to say or how to say it...But He knows.He knows what's your problem and He can fix it.And probably, sometimes, we don't hear Him, but that doesn't mean He's not here to help us.So, talk to Jesus, and wait.It might look an eternity till the ambulance is there, but it only takes few minutes actually.
I realized in the last week I used a lot(too much) the words not complaining and it's kind of annoying.So I would say they are the ugly word(s) of the week.Because I said them too much and I didn't mean it.I was soooo depressed!!What's the point?..ugh...UGLY WORDS.don't use them..
Another thing to say:I twisted my hand the other night, since then it hurts so bad, but this is not smth exciting for you:)..
Somthing exciting for me: I have couple of pages and I'll finish my 3rd set of lessons.I am happy, thanks God I can do it:).

The repetition of small efforts will accomplish more than the
occasional use of great talents.(Charles H. Spurgeon)

song of the day

I'll stand!

I'll come back with some more thoughts, but for now I just want to share with you this.Listen to it carefully and you'll find it really deep.

fericirea noastra = ranile celorlalti

Am observat in ultima vreme cu cata usurintza spunem lucruri negandindu'ne ce efect ar avea asupra persoanei de langa noi care le aude.Iti dai seama ca ai ranit, dar tot mergi inainte, pe urmatoarea treapta si mai faci si acele gesturi care inrautatzesc situatia.Nu te opresti sa spui un sincer 'iarta-ma'(este considerat a fi o slabiciune sa spui acest cuvant) si treci mai departe in alergarea te spre ceea ce numesti implinire.Nu acorzi atentie la ceea ce se merita, te ingrijorezi ce poate fi dupa prima cotitura sau ce se ascunde in spatele fiecarei usi nedeschise, te plangi ca esti prins intr'un lant de evenimente care determina a fi zile, faci planuri si te inspaimanta propria'ti umbra.Alegi compania oamenilor pt a nu te simti atat de las, si o iei de la capat, mergand in cerc, intrebandu'te ce ai facut gresit, incercand sa faci ceva diferit, iar la sfarsitul zilei esti tot acolo:ranind, improscand, fugind.Ajungi la momentul cheie, vezi inimile triste cu care ti'ai presarat drumul, si ochii intrebatori ce'ti ies in cale.

La sfarsit, iti dai seama ca nu s'a meritat, ca ar fi trebuit sa spui "iarta'ma" sa te bucuri de lucrurile frumoase si sa apreciezi o vorba buna..

PS: I'll translate it into English when I have some time..promise guys.

yesterdays..

what i've learned last few days...

1.you can run, but the past is always next to you, no matter how far it could seem to be;
2.the world is so small, even if u are at the other end of the world, there is 99% chanses to meet somebody who knows a friend of your old mate's brother's wife and so you can feel like you have a lil piece of 'home' in that strage place;
3.you can pretend you're somebody else, but in the end, the truth will come out;
4.those moments when you think you have ur friends closer then ever, but in reality they're just using you, or at least, act like they are using you and you can't get it, no matter how hard you try(ouch, it hurts!);
5.if you're not single anymore, that doesn't mean you can't have fun anymore;
6.just because you feel useless, that doesn't mean that's true;
7.if you think your problems will go away while you're sleeping, you'll be very dissapointed;
8.a shopping day is never too long, too borring, and you didn't buy enough things;
9.when your heart is broken, you can eat chocolate and you'll feel better, or you can cry until u'll fall asleep.when you'll wake up things will be different.or not.

I can't promise you all these works for everybody, but I'm 100% possitve they are for me!.
One day..we won't fight no more and our children will play...


someday...one day.

did u eat your happy cookie today?

Yesterday was awesome!We went to Columbus flea market oh my God!...gorgeous!...I have no words...I liked it sooooo much, we found so many things, i didn't really buy too many things, but my sis was..wow:)..I bought this really super extra cute necklace and a vintage heart I'll put Eddie's picture in it and umm..what else:)...oh yeah, a Crest SpinBrush Pro Clean toothbrush which is A-M-A-Z-E-I-N-G.and..i took some pictures with my camera.I was happy yesterday at shopping...oh...I almost forgot!...the best pizza ever I ate there..same taste with the one from Seaside..
Today was and still is painful.Lately, for some reason i end up messing things instead of helping out others and be there for them when they need me.That hurts and it makes me feel miserable, but I'm not gonna give up trying and trying.Not complaining..
That's enough for now, I gotta get ready for church..yep, I forgot to mention, us(me, my sis and my cousin) decided to go at this Baptist church see how it is.I'll keep u updated ...see you!

sunshine over my rainbow.

Yesterday I talked with this person that I call 'a friend'.He said he's probably gonna move to Pa, and for a second I felt like my only true friend from here is leaving me...it's not a strange feeling, it's just strange cuz I didn't think I would care about that person being here or somewhere else on this planet.
Today I had another "half-half" day..not a really tough one, though.First, I finished my project and it was a success, the instructor said I did a great job.I'm still so excited that ...Eddie was funny..we were talking when I saw the grade(100%), I started to jump, dance, scream, hug and kiss the air and after that the pillow...It might be weird for you to see me that excited about school, but i really like what i do and...it's not a secret:)..the other reason for my happiness is the new camera I got..finally:).now I can go visit, my memories will be with me;)..
The bad part of the day was my really annoying extremly painful head ache..Actually, a migraine.It's not completly gone, but I definetly feel better!..:)
That's it for today.I'm tired ...see you guys..

your life is yours but it doesn't belong to you

I just started to write smth for my graded project, 'cause I got some ideas and I'm so excited about the whole thing, I finally have the feeling I do smth helpful for my life.It's a good feeling..like my life starts to have a contour, a "shape", and it's kinda going to one direction, not going nowhere anymore.
So, I wrote a letter today, actually, the letter...it's the first letter i send to my fiance from here..it's sort of sad romantic excited personal way to comunicate.And slow.
Later I'll go with my sister at ACmore(for my nieces) I'm so excited, I'll have like 2 hours to spend in that perfect place!!!we go at ACmore 'cuz they have this crafty-thing to do for kids and after that they can take home the crafts they did there, it's cool, makes me wish to be a kid again... I'll just skip to the next thought, I'm pretty sure you don't wanna hear(read) about "I didn't have this and I didn't have that" childhood.Still, I want to mention that

I had a great super funny full of events childhood

and i enjoyed it every single moment.
Next in line...my sister told me smth about the jews today(my brother in law knows everything-if not everything, almost everything- about jews)and I was a lil bit ...umm...amazed, you know, I'm pretty sure it's wonderful to live in the time of one of the books of the Bible, but to see and live in the time when the book of revelation is fulfilled, it's a feeling that I can't really explain..I mean, everybody's saying we live the end of the days, but sometimes it feels like you can reach that end, it's just like you can stretch out your hand and "grab" the end...pretty scarry if you don't know what you did, you do and/or will do with your life..I'll ask my bro'-in -law to give me that link and maybe I'll post it...just in case.:)
So..folks, DON'T FORGET...your life is yours but it doesn't belong to you, you know, it doesn't depent on you not at all, the life came somewhere from the above your life isn't yours, it Jesus'!