Sunday, November 29, 2009

Fast food world.

No, it's not an anti fast foods commercial.Me personally love fast food...Mc Donald's french fries, Burger King's hamburgers, KFC's chicken...and so on...What I am against is today's world.Everything's going fast.Everything's happening fast.We meet on facebook, fast, in 5 minutes we're friends..We talk on aims, we even do our school on line so we can get to work a full time job.In the end, we stop and ask ourselves what did we miss, what did we do wrong, why nothing is the way it should be, and we start again...changing the good stuff and keep doing the same mistakes.We choose to see the movie, in maximum 2 hours, not to read the book in a couple of days.It's a miracle when you see someone reading, and you give them a weird look, even though deep in your heart you miss reading a good book.But you don't have time.
I this moment, I feel like important parts of my life are stolen.Life The present society forces us to grow up over night, like that fake salad we eat everyday.To give up the childhood for boring, exhausting problems and the whole world expects you to be responsible as soon as you turned 18.Like being responsible is a new bracelet you put on.I wanna get off the train, find a new path, try new games, lay down in grass and laugh, feel the adrenaline of walking on the precipice's edge.I wanna see the stars again in the night.Count the falling ones and wonder about the 'walking' ones.Walk barefooted, go for a walk at midnight.I wanna throw away all the bills, the late pay fees, the boringness of an imperfect job, the tiredness of working overtime just to make a lil more money so you can afford a gift for Christmas.The pain of not having the ones you love the most next to you.The late dark nights when I can't sleep and I have nobody to talk to.I wanna forget my responsibilities.I quit!I quit being a grown up!I wanna take my old job back.I will be a sweet lil kid till the end!!!
And now, the [sad] song of the day.

Friday, November 27, 2009

A path called life

           Till today I thought life is what happens while you're busy making plans.It's true, nothing to change.We are always thinking what to eat at lunch, what to wear, when to leave the house, how to smile, what to do this weekend, where will we be next year, when will find our true love, will we have kids?Will they be precious?How about smart?...And we 90% of the beautiful memories we could create will never be remembered.Because actually, they wasn't created ever.Because we, the people, stress too much, think too much, consider ourselves too mature and too grown-ups to play around, to smile, to enjoy life!.We get caught in some kind of game we call responsibilities and we cannot forget our duty to everybody but us.this is a reality.The fact I just realized is that life, actually is 10% of what's happening to me and 90% of how I react to it.I didn't say it.John Maxwell said it.And I think he has 100% credibility in your eyes.It would be foolish of me to say he is right.First when I read it, I was a lil bit confused and not really agreed with it.After a moment of thinking, I found out one of the pearls of life.You know, one of the most precious ones.The affirmation "it's not what's going on, it's how you react to what's going on" just became more powerful to me and it has got a whole new meaning.I think it is time for a little change, a good one.A change of view, a new perspective.To be more helpful and less complaining.I will learn how to worry less and I will let joy to perceive in my life.And it will be easier, because I got my friends to help me.And best of all, I got Eddie, what else could have I asked for?
          I know, at this point in my life I feel like I have to climb the biggest mountain in my life, and as much as I try to succeed, nothing is going anywhere.Like the more I am challenging myself, the more this mountain sucks up the life out of me.The energy.All I need to keep going.I need to get out of here.To go find my energy, renew my motivation, start a new story, a better one.To find myself again, to rise from my pain.To fly free like a bird and live intensely like a butterfly!To love without waiting stupid signs or answers.To laugh without being embarrassed about my laugh.To cry without the fear that others will think I'm weak.To express my thoughts loudly.To make fun of simple things, and call a bad hair day a disaster...To wake up one morning and know what am I gonna wear today.To stop growing up for just one day and to be able to relieve the child hidden in me.I wanna grow young in heart while I'm growing up in age.

Let's talk about talk

A couple of days ago, this one rude guy from work, just told me I'm a jerk.I'm still confused why I was so shocked, about the fact that he just called me a jerk or that he hasn't even talked to me ever.There are always these kind of people who think they are pretty awesome and they can tell everybody whatever they want, when things don't go the way they want.Surprisingly, I just told him I don't care what he's saying;and turned my back to him while going back to my work.To be clear, I'll tell you what happened.He's a part time employee.I just returned from my disability, and I'm a full time worker for a year and couple of months.He got really pissed off because the manager gave me his spot permanently and now he has to go somewhere else whenever he comes in(if he comes in).But anyway, this is not important...I wanted to share with you this just to start a lil monologue about how can "talk" make you happy or just simply turn your perfect day into a perfectly shitty one.It is commonly known that tongue is one of the most powerful weapon a man has.It can bring hope or despair, according to King Solomon and other wise men, "death and life are in the power of the tongue: and that they love it shall eat the fruit thereof."(Proverbs 18:21).How many times in your life you failed to do something just because a person who you trust in told you you cannot do that?And how many times did you succeed in your job when somebody patted you on the back and told you:"Come on, you can do it!"..?
Yes, it is amazing when you put it this way.As usual, I am trying to understand how this works, but I guess it's not about understanding how it works, it about understanding and practicing its power.In a good way.Not as a deadly poison, but like a secret weapon of the Good.We, as people, need to talk.This is how we had been made.Ok, one of the reasons.To talk about goodness, about Jesus, life, love, the warmth of friendship and the wonders of the universe.Generally, everybody tries to choose their words wisely, to look like they are somebody, and I condemn nobody.The small problem is, people easily forget the words they talk come out from their heart, so your talk can amaze more men, but in the end your heart will be revealed.No, I'm not trying to ruin your day being a miserable dork, it's just sharing the truth.If you wanna be respected and your talk to be more than some random crap, you should look inside and make some changes.Let's face it, we can run from others, but where would you hide from yourself?
Talking, making a good conversation is art.Knowing when to say, what to say, how to say and more important, when to stop talking and start listening.Much can be said of a person's character by the way they use their tongues.You can lighten up someone's day, and probably even save their lives.What keeps you from doing it?

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

What kids think love is..

When a group of 4 to 8 year-olds where asked the question, "What does love mean?", the answers were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think...

When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth.

Billy - age 4

Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other.

Karl - age 5

Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.

Chrissy - age 6

Love is what makes you smile when you''re tired.

Terri - age 4

Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.

Danny - age 7

Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more.

Emily - age 8

Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.

Bobby - age 7

If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate.

Nikka - age 6

Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.

Noelle - age 7

Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well.

Tommy - age 6

My mommy loves me more than anybody .You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night.

Clare - age 6

Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken.

Elaine-age 5

Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Brad Pitt.

Chris - age 7

Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.

Mary Ann - age 4

I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones.

Lauren - age 4

When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.

Karen - age 7

You really shouldn't say ''I love you'' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.

Jessica - age 8

I just found this on the internet, and I thought that the sincerity and the simple-mindedness of kids should help us enjoy our lives and see a new perspective.I admit it, as an adult, or almost there, I tend to see only the complicated parts of the problem, and it gets harder and harder, so this way of seeing things, helped me a lot tonight.I wish I could be more like one of those super sweet naive kids...
Everyone, have a happy thanksgiving and a blessed weekend!!..:)

Monday, November 23, 2009

This is real life.:)
Today I took my older sister to take her driver license, and of course, she passed!I knew she was good...I told her...still, she was pretty nervous.The funny fact here, the same man who gave me the driver license in May, gave it to her.I was excited to see him, and thanked him(again)...It made my day.
Hmph...Anything else interesting?..I forgot the weekend is the short part of the week, and last 2 days just flew by me, leaving me with lots of things to finish to do, God, I gotta be more organized!!!And wake up earlier.Only if I wasn't that tired...But I'm thankful for Thanksgiving, can't wait for those 4 days off, sound like paradise!Actually, working is not that bad, to be honest.I don't have a hard job, still, I get home and I feel so tired, I don't want anything to do but sleep.Enough about work.
This weekend was a weekend of surprises!...We found out that other 2 of my sisters are pregnant, so, it'll be like, next year, almost in the same time, i'll be an aunt 3 times:).And today I realized that, my first, my third and the sixth of my sisters are pregnant...I'm glad I'm not the ninth.just kidding:)I'm dreaming about getting married, not about having kids!..

Speaking about wedding, I sent Eddie the papers he needs to apply for a visitor visa for holidays!Please, pray for him as he goes to USA embassy, having the interview and everything.I have faith and hope he will get the visa, I pray every day, and believe me, it's hard to pray:"God, your will to be done, not my wish".I am aware of the fact that He has the best plan for me and Eddie, and I wanna trust Him with all of my heart, still, I don't want to think about Eddie not getting  the visa.It's a pretty tough point in my life and I pray to have the strength to be thankful for what I have and to be patient and enjoy what I'll get one day.
Last week, while listening music at my iTouch at work, this song really nice song came on, I liked it and I thought to share it with you, at song of the day.I hope you like it...
See you guys in a couple of days, till then enjoy your life and smile!

PS:I almost forgot, yesterday I went to Wal-Mart with my sister, and we discovered that the first ingredient written on Gold Fish boxes, is "smiles"...It made my year!:)I knew why I loved Gold Fish!:)

Friday, November 20, 2009

Lifestyle changed

For the last couple of days, my life changed.Basically, it got back to normal...a different one.I know it can be confusing, but believe me, I know what I am saying.I went back at work this week, on Tuesday, and I found out everything changed.Lots of new people, my friends changed, I don't even know who to trust or not anymore...And when working in a team, you need to trust 100% the other team mates.But I'm sure things will work out and it'll be fine in the end.I have a positive feeling.:)
One thing I'm very very very excited, tonight, actually, right now, in like 30 minutes, I'll go to a praise and worship night at Princeton University.Yes, I have a friend that studies there.Actually, we just met 2 weeks ago at a romanian church, and he made me so proud of being Romanian...because he just finished high-school and he got full scholarship for 4 years.Yes, we are intelligent and smart people!:)I'm so nervous about how the things will be, and because my sister can't come with me cause she got over time..
Ok...ummm...really, my mind is blank so...I'm afraid I have to say au revoire!:)..See you soon, keep safe and don't get sick.

Monday, November 16, 2009


It will be a short one, not because I don't have what to say, but because it is late and tomorrow I'll start work again.I'm not sure, I'm happy, or not?...I'm happy cause I kinda got bored at home all day long, and stuff, but I'm totally definitely sad cause I won't be able to talk with Eddie every day, which is like the worst thing ever could happen to me.But, let's keep the cheerful mood here, and be thankful for weekends and internet.
I had thought over the weekend to write my first come back post about truth.It could sound like an essay you have to get it ready for Ethic's class, but let's face it, everybody stumble in it on their everyday life.I won't tell you what the dictionary says, you can find that out by yourselves.I was curious what Mr Google would say about it(because we always "ask him" about everything we want to know)..It said there "truth is rarely pure and never simple".The irony is, I deeply believe that truth is always pure.I'm not sure about the "simple" thing, but I'm certainly agree with the idea that truth makes things more clearer and simpler.So, this is the question: why should we stick with the truth and not living a lie?
We always have options in our lives.We are free to choose whatever we think it's the best for us, but how many times did you happen to think the shorter way is the easiest?And how many times it happened  that, after taking a decision, you wished to go back in time and changed it?Only if it could be possible!The tricky part is, usually, truth seems to complicate things at first sight, and we are tempted to believe it.In the end, when all the cards are shown, you sit there, with your head in your hands and wonder why did u go for it and how life fooled you again.The reality is pretty tough: nobody and nothing tricked you.That equation has only you and your choices you made in it.The result, is your present.Which can be a present(gift) or in a second it can turn in your worst nightmare.No, I'm not talking about some science-fiction movie, it's the real life I'm dealing with.Nobody can make decisions for you, but together, all of us, can change and influence this life, we can make a difference by choosing to tell the truth.It can be knotty always telling the truth, but as far as I'm concern, I think it is the simplest way to get thru things, even when it hurts.Honesty is one of the most important things to make it happen.It consist of being conscious of your qualities and deficiencies, but not overestimating yourself or underestimating.And now, after all this short "exposure" of some thoughts, maybe you wonder what made me write about such a large subject.I think you have the write to know there is nothing indecent about the naked truth, and this fact just fascinated me for last days...Actually, this is just one of them..Have a nice day everyone!

Friday, November 13, 2009

"Me, give me a break!!"

Ok, so I admit it, I kinda started to write shitty posts, just to keep on writing.I know, my friends, I have no right to steal couple of minutes out of your precious life just to read awful odd stuff...anyway.what I was saying, is I might take a break from blogging.My life is not awesome anyway and why should I fill this blog with ugly truths?.It's suppose to be funny, cheerful, and uplifting.I know you're not gonna miss me, but just in case somebody's wondering, I'm not dead, I just got a break from putting myself out there.I need me to go thru some stuff..

Monday, November 9, 2009

Safe place

Today while I was looking up for some stuff on Google, I was thinking to play a game see what it happens.I decided to type different words and search for the images.I typed several average words, nothing extremely interesting came out, so I typed the word "safe" and this image just popped out.It made my caring and, I wrote "safest place in the world"...there was some pictures with some places, but on the 2nd page was this picture.It's good to know that home is a safe place and the safest place in the world is in ur daddy's arms.Enjoy your day!:)

Friday, November 6, 2009


I discovered something pretty interesting today...:)and that is, if you read the titles of my last 3 posts, you can see for yourself, it says "fast, return tonight".I am still confused of this message, it could take so many meanings...Where should I return, and why such a hurry?...I guess, it's Eddie's heart, I know hun, I know, I miss you too.Oh, dear readers, never stay apart of your beloved ones!Take my advice with no doubt in your hearts that I wish it only for your best.I had in my life just one boyfriend, I met him almost 3 years ago and after not even one month from the moment we've met, we found out our feelings are the same and we've been together since then.I have never imagined this possible, especially when I was looking around me and all my other friends had had at least 2-3 boyfriends(girlfriends) until they found the right ones...But I can say it from the bottom of my heart, I could never be much thankful for him.For his love.For the opportunity to spend my whole life with him and only him.One of my dreams came true...To find my soul mate and enjoy our adventure together.It is, indeed a great adventure, but being with the right person, it makes it special and a lot more easier to go thru it every day.No, I won't say that once you'll find the right person for you, every problem will vanish, never.But the magic in every story is how you both can get all the monsters down and how good team you make, forgiving each others mistakes, learning from each other, helping the other one to be himself(or herself), being there in every moment, and yet, not being in the way of living their lives.Of course, each relationship has its own style, story, history, present and future, and I can't tell you exactly what to do to work things out, only I can assure you that, if you love, and are loved, always will be a solution for every problem and a bigger happiness in your daily walk.

 Yes, I know, I started with an odd fact, but don't you find love odd and yet such a normal feeling that any of us should feel and share?

song of the day


I'm happy, but my heart hurts.I'm not sure I've experienced it in my life, it's such a funny feeling.Indeed, I found out happiness is a part of us, like, the walls of a need them to create the room, it's your choice if you put something on them or you just put some black old wallpaper on it.But I was not thinking to talk about happiness.I am aware of the thing that you might be happy in your life, but you never find happiness.
Feeling the peace in my sad heart is such a wonder.I guess tonight is going to be a good night...with good sleep and great dreams.Life gets tougher and tougher each day, but I won't give up.I decided just to stay strong, face the problems and more, resolve them!.I challenge life and I am determined to win the battle.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009


For the las past weeks, I couldn't have done anything...nothing that I had to do.I guess it was a way to be a rebel, or to unleash the teenager that tries to dye and to push away the adult is getting ready to make his presence known.I like to think I'm mature enough to handle this, but the truth is, I'm childish enough to be afraid of the changes that take place in me, and it's pretty scary.I spent the last (10) days to discover myself again, to get to know me, to find out if I still have the same dreams and if I still go on the direction I wanted.But, days go on, and I don't figure out anything, on contrary, I get more and more confused with every step I take, or, maybe I thought I've taken.I don't know much, but I have the feeling I'm not searching  the answers in the right place.It's like I have the wrong map or something.I miss those days when I used to get out of the house every day even just for a walk with a friend, or just to walk to the market place..I guess in all our lives we'll have a time when we'll miss and think about how good it was "back then".I just can't realize how to make this period of my life more sweet than bitter.A best and most special friend of mine told me last weekend while we were typing on Yahoo! Messenger, that we should learn from our past and present so in our future we won't cry this days either.I needed to hear that, it was like a cold shower, and for a second I felt better, 'cause I realized, even if we're thousands miles away, literally half-way 'round the world, we still have that thing what always bonded us.It's good to know you still have your friends even when you see them just one time a year, or not at all.It's a radical change, from spending all your time with some persons and the next day not to be able to call them every day, not saying anything about having fun together.
There are changes in life you can't manage, and there are choices others make for you.There is nothing to be afraid of, it's just life.I know, life can be the scariest thing could happen to somebody, but on the other hand, it could be the best thing happening ever.I don't know about you guys, but I wanna be the kind of woman that, when my feet hit the floor every morning, the devil says:"oh crap, she's up!".


At 12:00 I have appointment for hand physical therapy.I don't really have time to write here a lot, but that's fine cause I don't really know what to say, it's been an interesting week for me, and not in a very good way.I promise I'll try to find myself in these hard times and I'll get back here and post again.That's it for coffee is waiting and I gotta get ready...See you soon folks!:)