because i miss too many things

Still didn't finish your letter, sweet friend..it's like i don't want to give away that magic..'cuz when i'll finish it, i probably feel lonely again...maybe relieved in the same time..
i decided today to get focused on things that make me happy!...I'll learn to play the guitar, how to sew(not hand sew), i'll practice my roller blading(hope won't break anything again:">)but first of all, I'll go and find a doctor for my knee...and take care of it so i can be more like normal..
Is it me, or ppl have a strange behavior in last days?oohh, don't worry about me, i'll be here with ...me.

they told me to shut up

it's not like the title would actually have smth to do with what I write, but...at a second thought, it's kinda true in a way..WHATEVER..not complaining..

nu e ca si cum as avea that crazy life unde n'am timp nici sa rasuflu, din contra, ma simt uneori k o pensionara..cu prea mult timp pe maini si parca nu ma vad in stare sa fac ceva de calitate cu el..doar stau si ma plang.imi doresc sa schimb ceva, but i'm a lil bit confused..

I wish I wasn't alone tonight...again

time..

PS: today, august 9th, it's been a year since I left...

moments of solitude..

I started to write a letter to my BFF and i couldn't finish it in like...3 days for now?!and I'm wondering....how long it will take, at last, to the moment when i'll get it to the post office and SEND it.and the real reason it's not that i don't have what to tell her.Perhaps u're wandering why would i send letters to my bff who's living...*take a deep breath* thousands miles away!ok, i tell you the whole truth...i'm in a far far far away kingdom which is not really my wish, but for now, this is the life, i am here and i'm not gonna start complaining.it wouldn't help at all..
*sigh* i feel a lil bit better..
Last night i had terrible pains, and this night won't be different...i already took a tylenol and the pain just loves my, i guess..yep, it's the cast..actually not the cast is the problem..the problem is my broken bone.i wanna go for a walk at the park, i feel like i'm gonna find some friends.
*moment of thinking*
I need some friends which i can go out with...

copilarii de adulti

Cer patat de nori si inceput de zi monoton..sambata.N'am chef de nimic, nici macar sa dorm.Ce bine ca se gaseste mami sa ma scoata pana la magazin..sunt imbufnata si fitzoasa, capsa pusa, altfel spus.Dar tot raul spre bn...ma plimb printre rafturi, repetandu'mi in gand:"n`ai bani, nu`ti permiti sa`ti cumperi.." si totusi!!era acolo!!!....albastru cu roz se imbinau perfect cu nasturii de metal...o pun p mine[ma chinui, desigur...i'm a cripple...nu uitatzi asta:)..]si merg mandra prin magazin...nu o mai dau jos...o ador...si'apoi si Levishii aia asa scurti:x...hainele curg..printre altele mi'am gasit si masa...si tabla speciala sa invatz in pat...if i want to:)vara'mea imi spune ca m'ar bate.numai eu imi gasesc chestii faine.si'ar gasi si ea...doar ca ea vrea totul ieftin, da' cu eticheta!...nesimnificativ!..
imi place de princess a mea, spune la toti ca sa aibe grija cum ma trateaza, ca inca am the cast on..si k sor'mea e maritata acum...nu ca n'ar fi adevarat, dar are un fel asa naiv de a spune lucrurile...
Raman uimita de un copil, iar timpul trece.

what is your mistery, life?

There is a weird fact about this summer: extremely rainy.And this is making the days perfect for sleepy days when you're lying in the bed, watching movies and write love letters.Not a chance that would inspire you some responsibility to study something..and i don't really care anymore...do I?
Life wasn't exactly how i was expected for the las few days...or weeks,I already lost the count...Have you ever felt like this, when everything's the same but it starts to mean anything else for you and so on...And before you can figure out what's going on, everything's out of control and you try to repair some mistakes you did and make a bigger one instead ...So depressing the feeling, like you'll never be the same and you'll never handle it ...it's like you're not able to face it and to take care of problems.and then, because you're desperate, you're looking for smth to take the blame.anything.for me, was the cast...it's like a shield where I am protected of all the words that hurt me... oohhh nevermind!..what do you know?
Life is more rainy days than sunny days...what matters is how to travel with the rain and how to make from it an ally, not an enemy.

pentru ca 'azi' este 'maine' de care te'ai temut si 'ieri' de care iti este dor

E ciudat sa incepi sa scri ceva ce nici nu sti ca vrei sa spui...sa scoti cuvinte din sertarul mintii fara sa fi sigur ca vrei sa le faci cunoscute.si totusi, le dai afara ca pe o mancare stricata...cu naduf!
Azi...a fost ceva unic.nu, nu ma intelege gresit..n'a fost 'ziua perfecta' asa cum imi imaginez eu(poate o data am sa vbesc si despre zile perfecte...).A fost unica, pt ca am facut un lucru unic...am spus "nu" la ceva ce vroiam atat de mult, dar stiam ca nu este ok sa il am.nu ma refer sa un lucru sau o persoana..ceva mult mai mult decat atat.un secret, o taina...stiu ca am facut lucrul care trebuie, dar ce este interesant, nu ma simt libera..credeam ca o sa ma simt mai bine, mai bucuroasa, ca am avut puterea d a alege ceea ce este bine.Imi este teama in schimb.teama de a pierde ce am, de a fi inteleasa gresit.Ar trebui sa fiu linistita, insa in schimb, o lupta se da in mine..lupta de a da timpul inapoi si a face lucrurile cum le faceam de obicei...sa spun 'da'.Credeam ca o sa fiu puternica indeajuns sa spun 'nu' si sa fiu libera.Dar vezi tu, libertatea nu se dobandeste prin putere.si totusi...
...cu ce am gresit cand am facut lucrul care trebuie???