begin to hope or begging to hope?..

this is the third time when I write something and after that I press “backspace” without thinking if I really meant what I just put on the paper…

I like the title I gave to this entry.It’s so confusing and challenging for me, a rethoric question that just pops in my mind.what if we think we began to hope, but we actually are just desperate begging for some HOPE?right now I feel like I don’t know what else to say, it’s just a weird feeling you get when you’re not sure of something. What should we do to bring hope back in our lives? Is it enough just to say “I hope…” ? Actually, how many of you, people, are really thinking of the meaning of the words when you use them?..I know, it became so natural to use words like hope, faith, soul, love, hate, feelings, without really thinking at their purpose and how can they affect our lives and the community we are living in.we locked in our homes, put alarms, bought computers, cellphones and we started sending hugs and kisses through messenger and e-mails.we began to say ‘I love you’ and ‘I hate you’ so easily like we would say ‘helo, how are you?’. We say we forgive and forget, but we don’t know what love is. And maybe you’re asking yourself ‘what has love to do with forgiveness?’ but I tell you frankly, without LOVE you can’t do anything. Look, guys, just once be honest with you and your beloved and admit it: we are NOT beginning to hope, we are begging to hope. So we can dream on.. so we’ll still be able to get out of the reality …so we can LIVE.



Ps: I am wondering, why people say the trees are brown with green leaves, ‘cause I would say it’s more a grayish color?