Letter for you.

              Your silence is killing me. Yes, it's slowly, painfully taking my life out of me. I don't know how will it be this time, but I know I won't give up. You know me, I need to talk. To talk to you. And to listen to you, too. I need to hear your voice, and to hear what do you have to say. And why in the world, when I tell you about serious problems you have nothing to say? Just say something, for God's sake. Don't let me stay there waiting for the sound of your lips. I need you like the air I breathe. It hurts when you say you had a bad mood all day long, but you don't say any details. 

        So, what happened? I feel between us is more than just the Ocean and some countries. I feel a gap is forming between our hearts. Maybe it's not, but help me sort things out. You were the one who thought me to speak my mind. To let my heart speak, and not think twice before I say something. Now, why do I have the feeling that you talk, but you're not saying anything? Where are those days when we used to really laugh? Where are the good jokes? Why on Fridays I'm the happiest at work, and not because I get my paycheck, but because I know I get to talk to you, and in the end, why I am quite sad? Do I ask for too much? Are you tired of this? Why am I sitting here, right now, writing all these when this shouldn't be a problem anymore? All these things are just in my head? I don't know, but I have the feeling that the next step will throw me off the edge. I have enough things in my life I feel uncertain of, please, don't make my life more impossible than it is and say I just watched too many movies, and all I write now it's just my abundant imagination. 

          I know others will say 'stop being a drama queen', but I don't care. You're the only one that can calm me.You have no idea how much you influence my life, please stop playing with it. I know you don't realize it, that's why I'm not mad at you. I just need to talk to you. Talk. I miss that. Spend some special time together. We grew, we both have responsibilities, we are stressed, we are tired. I understand it. How will we be able to go further if we don't know how to let behind anything that is this world related and enjoy our time together? How much we cherish that slightly little bit of time we have every week? 

             I love you. You love me. I know it. Let's just be how we used to be. I promise I will do my best. I want you to do the same thing.

I love you forever and ever, baby.