Lesson About Faith

      Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. (Hebrews 11:1)
    Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. (Philippians 4:6)
    
      Last days I had this verses in my head. As time passes, me and Eddie are getting more stressed, time's too short for everything, problems at job that need to take care of, at home is another "life" that need to live.. It's been so busy lately, I have no idea how it is possible to be June already!!! I'm happy, just 2 months and I'm gonna finally see Eddie, but on the other hand, so many things to get done, and so little time... And when you think there's nothing that could make things go even worse, there it is! Waiting for you to think that, and pops out! So discouraging can it be!!! But, never forget those two verses, I thought about them so much, and practicly, them and Eddie's prayers kept me going on, otherwise, I would've just wanted to disappear. Problems make you feel weak, small, and not able to handle 'em, but the situation is totally changed when you show your problems how big is your God. This is what I did. And suddenly, nothing seems to be too big. Or too complicated. Nothing. 

Great feeling...

    Yeah, a great feeling is how I felt today, when I parallel parked my car perfectly ... for the second time after I got my driver license...:) I tried several times with no success, but today... just perfect! Ok, it was from the second try, but still... last time, I tried half of hour and after that, my dad parked it. I'm proud of me! :))

   I guess this is why all the girls want Smart cars...:D

How should you ...

    So, how should you react when you can clearly see your sister just don't fit in with your friends? Not any sister, the one whom you've always had the same friends since forever. I had a wonderful day, and I'm tired, I'll be back with some more information on Monday, I hope. Would be great if tomorrow I wouldn't have to go to Reading, Pa... Life's not only sweet dreams, my dear!

Weekend.

                So, I stay here, trying to find the right words. Lately, I've been a lazy blogger, and I gotta make up to those who read me. I had a pretty interesting week, and one thing has to disappear from my life: naps that I take right when I come home from work. They just mess up my whole schedule. One thing I have had in my head for those last days: focus. I need to focus on things that need to get done and stop wasting my time. I wish I could have enough time for everything I want to do, who wouldn't wish for that, right?!
                 My life now is only about wedding right now, but still, I'll try not to talk about it too much. It can be fun, though. I thought it's so stressful and not fun at all, nothing goes as you plan, everything breaks, you're out of the ideas... but there, in those moments, if you stop a second, say a prayer, calm down and take things slowly, you can do whatever you want. Another crucial thing I gotta keep in my mind, is: nobody will actually know how I wanted things to be. They'll see only the "finished product", and they're gonna love it. As long as we are happy, what else matters? Good. The counselor part of myself, does a good job. I give me a pat on my shoulder. :) Since yesterday, time started to fly. Really, today, the 8 hours spent at work, seemed like 5 minutes. Came home, took a nap (accidentally I slept for TWO hours!!!) and guess what time is it? 10:11 PM! And I have 2 months, 2 weeks and 2 days to get most of the planning done.
                 Eddie is in Germany. Yep, I was as surprised as you are. He had to go with his bro', some "business trip" who knows?!.. I'm kidding... What I don't like is that, they left today, and they want to make it back in time for their cousin's wedding. Going back to weddings for a sec, this is officially "wedding year". So many people I know are getting married this year, is crazy!! Oh, Eddie... I wanted to say I am worried about him, about this 7 hours drive to Germany, look for what they need, than come back, another 7 hours drive. And I cannot get in touch with him, that's the worst part. His roaming service is not activated, and I don't know his brother's cellphone number, cause he just changed it. All I can do, is pray. and hope. and trust God.
             On another hand, I haven't heard anything from my bff, maDa. Ok, I know, I didn't write either, but I've been busy (spending hours on trying to find the right paper for the invitations.hilarious!!) with.. everything. I miss her, though, and I'm wondering how's she doing. The other day I was thinking, if we could've been together now, to plan this wedding together and have fun going shopping. At least, I have lots of memories. It counts, doesn't it? Of course it DOES!. So, maDa, if you're reading this, just letting you know, I've been thinking about you even if I haven't got the time to write you. hugs and kisses, my dear!
             This week it felts like I haven't learnt anything new. Same old things. Guess sometimes we need to "repeat" the class, so we can reach the level for another lesson. Oh, wait! I got in my mind this quote I read once on internet: "Smile is a curve that sees things right". Any ideas what that could mean? I'm sure there's a catch, I've been trying to figure out something, but nothing I liked popped in my head. Till yesterday, when I thought, that, in life, even if you go thru rough times, you still can smile. Nobody says it's forbidden to smile any time. It's natural to smile when you're happy. And everybody says it matters how you go thru problems, not really how you end up getting the right solution, right? Then, smile IS a curve that sees things right. I mean, no matter how big the storm is, you can still smile, knowing that at some point, sun will be out again. Am I making sense here?!.. Honestly, I don't know, but it feels soooo good to be able to put down my thoughts. I have plenty of time at work to think about anything.
             Something annoying: when somebody thinks sum up life only about money. I imagine them with some of those glasses with $$ signs instead of lenses: everything you tell them, they instantly think: "Oh, that's expensive!" or "How can they afford that? They MUST have money!!!". Worst thing? Sometimes, I'm like that too. I do my best to keep it real, I mean, life is NOT only about money!! Yes, almost everything is done with money, but you can enjoy life even if you're not in top 10 richest person on the planet. It's an adventure, a way to trust God, to learn how to step forward. Look at the bright side and just stop saying "No" to things you'd love to have or places you'd want to go.
       Oh, crap! I have a lot more to say, but I'll stop here. Have an awesome weekend, enjoy the summer and smile as much as you can!:)

My Up-To-Date Life

         Don't worry, I know it's just May, I put this picture up just so you can have a teeny-tiny idea of how my wedding will look like... Since I got all so stressed and almost transformed myself into a bridezilla, I said what could be more fun than to share with everybody how's it going?!... So, here I am, standing here, with a blank look, trying to find what to say.
          First, we have the date: September 11th 2010. The theme will be, obviously, fall wedding. Location? It'll be in Oradea , one of the most beautiful cities in Romania, and it happens to be the city where Eddie lives(of course). The ceremony and the reception will take place somewhere next to a lake, outside of the city, it's a very beautiful place. I've never been there, and you know what?! I'm amazed how am I handling all these. Because, I have to plan everything from here. And I cannot be there to see when every single decision is taken. Ok, this might not be tragic, but I'm all stressed out cause I have no idea how I want things to be.. I chose this fall wedding theme, and I don't even know when it happened, why I chose it, cause I've never thought of my wedding having a fall theme. To be honest right here, I've never imagined my wedding in a certain way. I always imagined me and my groom, not any thing else. And my heart stops beating when I'm hearing all those brides who know everything about their big day since the day they were born. They know exactly what colors they want, what decorations, how they want their hair, what dress to wear, shoes, make-up, they know even what tie their hubby-to-be will wear. I have no idea of all these things. I always dreamt of my wedding day being the most funniest day in my life but never thought how would it look like. Well, I guess this is one of my major problems in life: I don't really know what I want. So, going back to the wedding, I like this picture and the warmth of the colors.. that's great. What's not great is the whole other choices you have out there. I guess everybody a lot of brides-to-be go thru this (at least I hope). It was so hard in the first place to pick some colors. Green with brown, green and white, brown and orange, blue and yellow, orange and green and so on. It was harder to stick with them. I chose fall colors: brown, orange, red, some yellow... I constantly would've changed them if Eddie hadn't stopped me. He said: "That's enough.. the wedding will be done and you'll still keep changing the colors." See? God knew why He gave us the guys... They might be useless sometimes, but essentials to other stuff. I'm so grateful I have Eddie by my side. So, we have the date, the location, the colors, the person who's gonna decorate everything, guest list, what invitations will have... and talking about invitations.. I said I'm gonna do them myself (a way to save some money and have some fun.. I thought). I chose this simple invitation (click here to see it) how hard can it be to do it? Didn't think I'd have problems, but never thought I wouldn't find a place where to print them. Cause they are "negative" (how the lady from Staples told me.. they print out only on "bright" papers with "darker" text color). It's interesting how even the things you think they'd be head ache free, end up giving you the biggest head ache. I still have faith they'll be gorgeous in the end.
            I guess it started to be boring, I'm already bored when I hear myself talking about, and still, there are so many other things I would've never ever in my life thought could be possible to think of them as a part of the wedding. It's a big challenge for us to do it, first, because I am here (and usually the girls take care of every single detail), second because we have just 3 months to plan this, and third, because we are sooo different! I am the kind of person who wants to know every moment what will happen in that day, he's the kind of person who needs to know just what hour he needs to be in church and when's gonna eat. Not really, but he's not stressing so much over details like I do. Honestly, this difference can start up small "fights" really easy, but you know what? He's the one who makes me laugh at the end of the day, no matter how mad I am, and I keep in my mind, the most important thing is that I'm marring the guy who was perfectly made for me. The rest is just details... some will remember 'em, some not. What they're gonna always remember will be how we will be in that day. Our love and our happiness. And nothing, I promise, nothing will come between me and the happiness of being there with Eddie.
        I cannot wait to live that day. It's gonna be perfect, because it's gonna be our wedding.

Why?

    Why when I felt everything was going ok, suddenly I felt more lonely and abandoned than ever?...

For All Women

Women have strengths that amaze men...

They endure hardship and carry burdens, 

but retain happiness, love and joy.

Smile when they want to scream.

Sing when they want to cry.

They cry when they are happy, and laugh when they are nervous.

They fight for what they believe.

Rise against injustice.

Don't take "No" for an answer when they think there is a better solution.

Bear hardship for their family to have it all.

They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.

Their love is unconditional.

They cry when their children are successful and enjoy when friends get awards.

They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding.

Their hearts break when a friend dies.

Mourn the loss of a family member,

yet they are strong when they think no power has left at all.

They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a wounded heart.

Women are of all sizes, colors and shapes.

Driving, riding, walking, running...

A woman's heart is what keeps the world moving.

They bring joy, hope and love.

They have compassion and ideas.

They give moral support to family and friends.

Women have vital things to say and everything to offer.

However, if is a defect in women,

there is that they forget their VALUE.

      PS: I'm sorry I don't have enough time to write more, I'd have so many things to say, but time is my enemy for quite a while... Have a wonderful week, and I hope you enjoyed reading these words full of truth. God bless!

The Inner Power

           All my life I had to be strong for my family, for my friends, for everybody, and in this way I kind of forced myself to be stronger than I ever imagined. But what's gonna happen when I won't be able to be strong anymore? The tougher I show others I am, the more sensitive I get inside. I'm curious how my life will turn out to be like.

        Till then, I found this quote very interesting and I wanted to share it with you, guys...

If ever I reach heaven I expect to find three wonders there:
first, to meet some I had not thought to see there; second, to
miss some I had expected to see there; and third -- the greatest
wonder of all -- to find myself there.

      -- John Newton

Behind The Scenes

       It's interesting how people show only what others want to see. It's pretty sad how all of us got to the point when a smile, or a joke made me say "Oh, but I know that person!". Really? Well, let me tell you how I've been feeling for a while.. Unknown. I mean, so many people who think they know me, and in fact, it's exactly the opposite  how this picture is. They stay in front of the drawer, but they don't open it to see what's inside. Don't wanna handle with the mess inside. How much guts you need to open just one small part of somebody? Sometimes I look at people around and I wonder how much sorrows do they hide, how many secrets share their brains, how many happy moments their hearts enjoy? We are connected to each other, if we need each other to live, how can we just pass people and not care about 'em? There are moments like these, when I sit down in the dark in my room, and wonder if I understood this world the wrong way. Why people have a "behind the scene" section in their lives? And how it is possible for someone to change that much in a relatively short time? When did all of these happen? How? I take a huge breath and lye back in the chair. It's gonna be a long night, questions hanging in there waiting for an answer. And I can't help not asking myself how it would've been if just one thing was different?